to you....

To the man who pretends not to see me....
I know you see me, but yet you keep ignoring me on purpose. I know it's on purpose, there's no hiding it.  It's just as painful for me. I saw your hand shake as you unlocked the door today then hurried and ran off like you had no idea who I am. Well do you know what? It hurts. It hurts that someone who claims they are so Christlike can't even forgive enough to say hello and ask how I am. It hurts that someone who I thought cared doesn't even care enough to make even a small amount of eye contact. It hurts and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of feeling this way. I know I shouldn't let other people determine how I feel, but every once in a while I'm not strong enough to not let others influence the way I feel. I'm working on myself. I'm working on being happy. So couldn't you just say "Hi Jenny, how are you today?" and genuinely care? Isn't that what the Savior taught? Isn't that what he would want you to do? Just sayin', maybe you should take a little bit of your own preachin' and apply it to your life. That is all. I've vented and feel much better now. Happy Thursday! It's almost the weekend. :)

Facing my fear!

Well, I have reached the point where I cannot avoid it any longer. My entire college career I have had a looming fear about student teaching and today I began to apply. I am applying for fall 2013 (it's the next available time I can do it) and I'm applying to my home state. I might even be able to teach at the middle school I went to.... which may be even more scary! But, I'm excited for the adventure that is in store and even more excited to be done going to school, but teaching it instead! There is light at the end of the tunnel and I'm almost to it.

very merry belated christmas!

I really really wanted to send out a Christmas Card this year, but dagnabit... They can get to be quite expensive, so here is my card I created weeks ago, but never got out. Merry Christmas from our home to yours!