Yet again....

A short post about my lame blogging skills and what I plan to do to improve them!

Here I am yet again looking at my blog and thinking how lame my blogging skills are... Yup! That's right only 4 posts this year. That being said I officially proclaim that in the blogging world I apparently suck, but in the real world where things really count I'm pretty awesome! I have been up to all sorts of shaningans throughout the year and I'll do you and me a favor and not overwhelm you will a billion pictures of my life. Instead I will tell you this, I have revamped the goals I made for myself at the beginning of the year.
So... What does this mean for my blog? I AM going to be better at blogging. It's not for you, (whoever you are) but rather I am doing it for myself. For the next 4 months I am going to be focusing on me and working on improving myself. Part of the way that I am going to do this is by writing about it. I know that I do best when I can write about what I'm feeling, thinking and doing. I've been slacking in this department because it is sometimes easier to not express what I am feeling than to be honest and true with myself.  So, instead of worrying about what I think, you think, or what anyone thinks I'm just express myself the way I know I would like to.

Sooooo.... Look forward to regular postings of where I am at and how my 4 months of self improvement is going.

Just sometimes....

Sometimes... just sometimes when I walk home from school, work, church or pretty much anywhere, I really get to thinking. That tends to be a problem for me. When I think, I think to much and too hard about things which are special to me, things I am grateful for, things I would change if I could, things I would never change, things I love, things Heavenly Father must be thinking, things that I would do if I had the guts, things I would guess to be right but are probably wrong, things, things, things.... I'm telling you it starts to get pretty complex.... All this thinking always brings me back to how vass this world is and how vass our Heavenly Father's plan is.
I love it.
It leaves me with a grateful heart, a wondering mind, and usually a few tears rolling down my cheeks.

Life is awesome.

phew....

Do you ever just have those days where you feel totally and completely overwhelmed? Where you just want to laugh, cry, sing, dance, curl up in a ball and hide?

Me too! That's been my life all week long. Today has especially been one of those kind of days. I've hardly slept. Thought a lot. Felt overwhelmed and inadequate. It's really been a roller coaster ride of a week.

That's life. Really it is.

One of the best parts about life is that in the coming weeks and months life is going to be wonderful. I feel so abundantly blessed and I know my Heavenly Father is 100% aware of me. I'm excited for the future and look forward to continuing to find joy in this lifelong journey.

The big "phew" of today was when I cam home from church meetings and my sweet husband and older sister Shauna had made the most delicious lunch. It was really such a relief. Sounds silly, I know. Lunch really is such a simple thing, but it was the perfect gesture that helped subside my feelings of being overwhelmed. Who knew that fajitas could work such magic?

Well, bring it on life... I'm ready!

Confession

I have a confession I need to make.... I'm crafty. Yes, you read right. I'm crafty and I know it. I usually try and deny it but I have decided that I would LOVE to blog about my constant projects. So, the first step in that process is overcoming the state of denial I'm in. I love crafting away and constantly having some sort of project to work on.  Phew... ok I'm out of denial.

My most recent project was a scrapbook for my grandparents 60th wedding anniversary. And let me tell you... it was a HUGE project that was finally finished at 2:45 a.m. the night before the big party. (Thanks for the help on the finishing touches Mom, Shauna, Amy, Heather, and Michael!) I believe it was a huge success. One of the reasons I have decided that I should share projects - past & present - on my blog is because they are really a part of who I am. While making the giant scrapbook my heart was very full and overwhelmed. I was able to talk/message/email all of my family and realized how truly blessed I am. I felt honored to be a part of my family and very honored to be a part of our family's legacy. So... here is a little peak at one of my favorite pages, the finished project, and my lovely grandparents and husband. 

 With all that being said... you can look forward to many more future posts about projects, ideas, tips and all other sorts of stuff I have to blog about. (This will most definitely help with my bloggers block!)

I will...

 I've been thinking a lot lately, about making the most of:

#1 Where I am at in life.
#2 Time.
#3 Enjoying the trials that the Lord throws my way.

Life has a few distinct phases. Birth, childhood, teenage years, young adult, adulthood and before you know it you are doing 5,000 piece puzzles and watching your favorite old T.V. classics. Life really is short. So, that is exactly why I want to enjoy where I am at in life 100%. I will never be in this same place or situation again. That being said... I have ALOT to do in order to enjoy this phase to it's fullest. Let the fun continue!

Right along with making the most of where I am at in life, I've decided that I'm only going to live this moment once, this hour once, this day once... so I am going to be happy with where I am at and let the journey shape me as I go. I will move forward in time, progressing, growing, and becoming who I want to and who I should be.
 
Finally, right along with the first things I want to make the most of is trials. All throughout my life I have had quite the handful of trials and experiences that have shaped me into who I am. One thing about me, whether you believe it or not, is that I like to keep things to myself. When I am having a hard time, struggling with something, have questions, or something is just flat out not right in my life, I really like to keep to myself and have SUCH a hard time exposing myself to the human elements of advice, judgement, opinions and all those things that come with it. (And, that is not about to change, I can tell you that!) But, I have decided that no matter the trial, no matter the heartache I am go through I will remember that the Lord knows me best. He knows my weaknesses, He knows my strengths, but most of all he knows exactly what I can handle. Because he knows it, I know it. Plain as that.

With all these seemingly simple, yet complex and difficult things that have been on my mind lately, I have come to realize that I must "Learn to love the skies I'm under". And that is exactly what I will continue to do!

Sometimes...

Sometimes we are forced to hard things whether we want to or not.... and that just stinks!

Beef....

It's what's for dinner.... 







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